Why I Almost Gave Up On My Dreams

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In a world full of heartbreak and pain, dissatisfaction and failure are often closer friends than contentment and success.

In a world where we only see each other’s best moments on social media, we tend to forget the great things we accomplish daily and instead highlight our inadequacies.

Or maybe it’s only me.

See, I’ve got some really big dreams – so big that if I told u them you’d probably give me the eye roll emoji —> this one 🙄, after telling me to go for it of course ;)! And even though they feel far fetched at times I often say if you have no hope you won’t be able to cope. Dreams (by grace) wake us up in the morning and I know this, but there were still two main reasons why I almost gave up on my dreams.



I’m 20 years old. And again, maybe it’s just me but I have a deep insecurity and sense of “times running out”. “Justin Bieber was a gazillionaire by my age” are the types of things that run through my head on a daily basis. Deep down I feel like there’s a big stopwatch on my life and it’s very important I beat the clock. Cos at the end of the day, I don’t wanna miss what Gods got planned for me now do I ?!




It’s too hard. I see all my heroes – the people that I aspire to be like – struggling to get by. Just about being able to pay their rent by living their dream and I think to myself: ‘if they haven’t been able to pull it off, what makes you think you can?’. And even on a deeper level, like a spiritual level. I’m a terrible person, like uno them ones like “how have I never been to jail” type ones? Nah? Well, I look at some of my spiritual heroes and see how they’re such good Christians and hear from God and change other people’s lives and stuff – only to hear that they’ve been having an affair for a few years 😩. And I’m like disappointed because subconsciously I need to see someone achieve my dreams so I know they’re possible! Again ‘if they can’t be perfect, how can I?’ Right?

Look, sometimes, there just feels like there’s too many obstacles to overcome, and the odds are stacked against you.

However, what ultimately got me through was a new perspective.

“Big dreams, really big dreams, but in reality they ain’t as big as they seem, Cos God’s always got a bigger dream for ya, (what kinda dream?) bigger than you ever seen for ya!” [Lyrics from Dreams from my debut album, Reflections].

Giving your dreams to God really takes the pressure off. It’s no longer up to you to perform but up to him to be faithful. And if there’s one thing we know God to be, it’s faithful.

If he’s truly put something in your heart – then it’s his dream, not yours! And this means he’s got a plan on how that dream is going to come true. Gods not like the gyaldem selling dreams on insta but don’t look the same in real life – he’s the real deal. (Shade?)

Mate, don’t get me wrong, I still doubt sometimes, I doubt whether I ever heard from God or if he really has a plan for me – but only because I’ve put my own conditions and dates on it. If he’s real, if he’s controlling all things and if it’s his dream, it’ll have to be done his way, with his conditions. So as Lil Yacthy would say “chilllllllllllllllll” and let God do his thang.


Dreams music video out May 25th.